10 March, 2026

this feels so fucking weird. i haven't done this in years. i'm staring at the neocities code editor and suddenly knowledge that i'd let go of over a decade ago feels like it never left my fingertips. of course this could not have been made without the help and resources of the many who have built neocities up, but still. it feels like a welcome home party. i'm strangely emotional about it.

especially since i'm using this to blog for myself, again like i used to back in ye olde 2014. there's so much pretense and demand to fit a mold that has never been designed to suit any living, sentient being literally everywhere else. it's nice to be doing this. it's nice to have fun again, put my full self out there with all of the weird flaws and eccentricities that come with that. as for where i'm at, the sky's currently setting a nice calico orange. the cup of water on my desk has gone lukewarm but no less nourishing, and there's a dog barking in the distance. i have a lot of work to do and put up on here, but for once that feels exciting instead of daunting, because it's mine. and you should show me yours, too.