i didn't think you'd like listening to me yap.

15 March, 2026

it's only been five days. five days and i've felt more personal expression here than i have in a while. lol.

yall ever struggle immensely to put your own feelings on a page? that's me rn. i'm trying to kick the habit of sanitizing myself, so these first few posts are going to be very... both jumbled and manicured, for lack of a better phrasing, not necessarily in presentation but in thought process. i'm working on it. in the meantime, i've been tweaking the site to be responsive as the original codebase wasn't, and putting much more of 'me' into it! that's my sona in the sidebar (or up top, if you're on mobile)!

i've been working on a few things concurrently: this site, learning my operating system (i finally get to make the "i use arch lol" joke now), and my personal project, clemencia. this is the first finished-enough-for-now thing, so i'm proud of myself for that. cachyos feels like a breath of fresh air compared to bazzite, although there's still some bugs that need sorting. as for clemencia, i think i've finally settled on the art style i want to use for its setting, so now i'm mentally planning how to go about and build it in 3d. my hope, though, is to blog about its progress here in the future.

as i write this, the sun's still out high and nice. the window's open, with a lovely breeze and the occasional chirp. it's a slow stillness i've been occasionally filling: today's tunes are by the lovely DJ XOY, who i found via a very gracious youtube pull, and bad bunny's DTMF.

i also finally instated a guestbook. so indeed, not only should you tell me about your projects, what are you listening to today?

10 March, 2026

this feels so fucking weird. i haven't done this in years. i'm staring at the neocities code editor and suddenly knowledge that i'd let go of over a decade ago feels like it never left my fingertips. of course this could not have been made without the help and resources of the many who have built neocities up, but still. it feels like a welcome home party. i'm strangely emotional about it.

especially since i'm using this to blog for myself, again like i used to back in ye olde 2014. there's so much pretense and demand to fit a mold that has never been designed to suit any living, sentient being literally everywhere else. it's nice to be doing this. it's nice to have fun again, put my full self out there with all of the weird flaws and eccentricities that come with that. as for where i'm at, the sky's currently setting a nice calico orange. the cup of water on my desk has gone lukewarm but no less nourishing, and there's a dog barking in the distance. i have a lot of work to do and put up on here, but for once that feels exciting instead of daunting, because it's mine. and you should show me yours, too.